It can be hard to get out of bed
Another week past, another blog post. This one will be much shorter than the last one, hopefully.
Anyways, the title says it all. I'm not feeling super depressed now, thank goodness, but I cannot find the drive to exist normally. I still struggle with not taking showers when I need to, no skincare routine, I never feel like doing my hair, never drink enough water, and I cannot find the drive to cook for myself either... but I know I need to.
Where do I get this drive? I have a to-do list marking out everything I need to do per day, something like so:
- "Reminder to drink water!"
- Wake up
- Make my bed
- Shower
- Regular bathroom stuff
- Skincare... blah blah blah
- Eat breakfast
- Eat Lunch
- Eat Dinner
It's very simple, but I still cannot find the drive to keep at it. I want to be independent, but apparently not enough to not have my mother do my hair (albeit she was a hairdresser at one point and thus is much better at it than me.)
But that's going to slide. Where do I find this drive? Why can't I find it? Why is it so hard to get out bed?